Every year the ‘mothers’ take us on a family visit, that is as long as it is safe for us at home. For most of us it is wonderful to see parents, brothers and sisters and sometimes even grandparents again. But sometimes it is difficult, because not everybody has a good relationship with their family. My relationship with my grandmother is complicated because I am angry at her. When I needed protection she couldn’t give it to me. Even though I understand why, she didn’t know what my grandfather was doing to me, this is still hard for me to deal with. When we visited her the other day I was glad two ‘mothers’ went with me, they helped me reach out to my grandmother. It was difficult for me while it also felt good to see her again after a long time. During the visit I slowly relaxed and after a while I started to enjoy the visit somewhat. I realized that I had blamed my grandmother for something she hadn’t known about. My anger is starting to fade away which helps me let my grandmother back into my life. I hope things will gradually get better.
